AsphyxiatingOxygen

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Shooting for the Stars by AsphyxiatingOxygen, literature

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Shooting for the Stars

"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars." ~Oscar Wilde I'm sorry I didn't buy you something, Showing my appreciation of you in my life. Kucoba senandung puisi untukmu Yang mencontohkan artimu Dalam hidupku. People say a picture is worth a thousand words; I believe that's the way you are. My friend, this is endless. You inspire me to sit up with the stars. I've never thanked you For being exactly who you are. Your perfection leaves me awed. If all oaths are meant to be broken Then let this signify something more. If no one else understands this, At least it will settle my mind. Sitting in the dull cl

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Euphoria by AsphyxiatingOxygen, literature

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Euphoria

14 letters never sounded so sweet together … He gazes at her, admiring her every quality. Her straight black hair that stops past her shoulders. Her smoldering deep brown eyes cascading warmth and a certain glow, that he has never known before. Like an explorer, he sets forward, to those eyes that draw him in. Eyes that haunt his thoughts, bewitching them. Her mesmerizing smile and cute laugh at his lame jokes. Her luscious lips move while he sits, mouth agape, speechless … and spellbound by her porcelain beauty. Pristine fragility, so fragile to his touch. So meaningful to his soul. But it goes more than skin deep. In

Special Someone by AsphyxiatingOxygen, literature

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Special Someone

You are my breath of air from the polluted Jakarta skies. I love how I'm made speechless whenever I look into your eyes. I think about you It seems like all the time. You're amazing to me and so perfect in my mind. Every moment spent with you goes by so fast; When we are apart, with me, time goes by so slow. There's just something about you, exactly what it is I really don't know. Could it be the way you make me smile… or because you are so sweet? You know just the thing to make me laugh, you're what makes my heart beat. The feelings I have for you are ones I've never felt before and with every day that passes I love you ev

Release by AsphyxiatingOxygen, literature

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Release

I feel this stone tied around my neck, carrying your burdens, your lies and deceit. Poisioning my already tortured soul. You grab the rope and thrust me over the edge, to forever sink in the sea. My sea exists as a worl of pain; suffering, guilt, hate and sorrow. Everything but happiness, which drifts in the sky, menacingly unreachable. From underwater, I stare at the sun, dreaming of the world above the waves. I sink deeper still and sun's warmth becomes but a memory. I see a ray of light that slowly dims as I struggle. With weak strenght, I thrust this stone that is forever killing me, and with every recess of energy, I

Yesterday by AsphyxiatingOxygen, literature

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Yesterday

Do you know what it's like to be hit? What it's like to always feel like shit? Have you ever felt hated, and always forgotten? Have you ever been ignored, and been left behind? Do you know what it's like to feel insecure? Was there ever a time, when you felt lost and confused? How much of your life, was spent in the shade, and you had dreams that you would fade, and you wanted to stay that way? Can you count the footprints, set in your dreams? How many of your tears, have turned into streams? Do you know what it's like, to feel misplaced? Do you have any flaws that can be traced? Have you ever felt, that you are alway

Great Eye of the Classroom by AsphyxiatingOxygen, literature

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Great Eye of the Classroom

All-seeing. All-knowing. The Great Eye of the Classroom. Ryan picking his nose for that booger that just won't dislodge. Sally flirting with the guys, bending over now and then, giving them a room with a view, and getting back their attention. Rob with his TI-83 Plus in one hand, and his new, flashy Nokia, in the other, ambidextrously playing games. A select group of kids actually working! Rumors have spread that Jack and Jill did more than run up the hill, last night at Bodanci's. The devout fasting Muslim surrounded by idiot friends trying to entice him with suggestions of food. Kids sleeping more, convinced that eight h

My Life by AsphyxiatingOxygen, literature

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My Life

The nothingness we live within. The entirety of our being. Polluted air surroundings, pure surface skin corrupted by overt fakeness. Plunged deep into lightness, only to withdraw forced exhalations. Choking oxygen opposite breathful death. Twisted life lived with fear of living, more than necessary. Inorganic life, spreading demise with every step. Shattered cities, lives, friends and family in the wake, strewn with tender instability. Crumbling under pressure, happily crushed between school expectations, family expectations, and most of all, life's expectations. New cuts sprouting where the old scars lie. Bordered with mo

Labyrinth of Lies by AsphyxiatingOxygen, literature

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Labyrinth of Lies

Hypocrisy strangulates with a delicate grip. Silence pounds in his ears, while the mirror betrays his fears. Dark clouds form, the blanket blinds his eyes. The sea rages with happiness, as the wakes come crashing down. The candle's flame within withers with vitality. I wonder how he walks this path beneath his feet. A path leading to a labyrinth of lies. Turning, twisting, winding, curving, the repitition never frustrating him. Looking outside the window of pain, the frame of sorrow binds all. The repressed truth floods the cistern of life. This child crumbles in the d

Escape from Hate by AsphyxiatingOxygen, literature

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Escape from Hate

Pitch black. Darkness consumes him, and cradles him. He embraces his fate. Brightness enters, splitting the two entities. Her face freezes him. Her touch quickens his heart. She strikes his soul where it hurts the most. Breathless, gasping for air. Clawing, slipping, drowning, insecure. She intoxicates him. His façade disintegrates, as he reaches out for her, and finds not her smooth skin, but an invisible barrier. She is goodness personified. She starts to turn away, and he calls for her, longing for her gentle touch. Darkness enters him, penetrating every organ of his body. His eyelids slowly shut as all happiness vani

Holding On by AsphyxiatingOxygen, literature

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Holding On

The mist is dense, and I feel it embrace me. The shadows so dark, and no one can see me. The snow falls deep and the cuts so many, opened a thousand time before. Tears no longer run and voices do not speak. My eyes are not alive they died a long time ago. My mouth forces a smile; it is not seen. Still I breathe and wake every morning, still my heart beats as I learn to deal with this pain and hold on, never to be consumed. My soul reflects the solitude. I hold on to shattered pieces of myself, that refuse to abate. The scornful laughter behind me, hurts too much. Why are they so blind to see? My scars lengthen and wo

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Artist // Literature

June 12
Singapore
Deviant for 18 years
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Current Residence: Dubai
Favourite genre of music: anything.. hip-hop, rock, "nu-metal", trance..
Favourite photographer: Piotr Jakubowski
Operating System: Mac OSX Snow Leopard
Personal Quote: Nothing good comes from regretting the past, so focus on the present, on what is now.

Favourite Visual Artist

Escher

Favourite Movies

Memento

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Linkin Park

Tools of the Trade

Microsoft Word, Adobe Photoshop CS, Final Cut Pro, Adobe After Effects, AVID, Macromedia Freehand MX

Other Interests

filmmaking, writing, singing

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AsphyxiatingOxygen

Sep 12, 2006

catching up on the recent week

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Well, it's been a long a** time since I've posted a journal, so for anyone who cares, here's what's been going on with me. I was in Jakarta for about three weeks. Was supposed to be there until the 5th of October, but due to unexpected family reasons, I had to come back to Singapore. My film production diploma course starts on October 23rd so my uncle hooked me up with an internship at his friend's branding agency called Blue Duck Design. So, I've been interning there for about a week now. The internship is going well. I went in last Tuesday at 10am on the dot, but Abraham (my boss and my uncle's friend) wasn't even there yet. hehehe.. He wa

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AsphyxiatingOxygen

Jul 18, 2005

last week at Aksara =,(

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Hi ppl.... Yup, it's my last week doing all the tasks I wrote about in my previous journal entry. Kinda sucks. I've made friends here really fast in the past month. And now, just like my friends at school, I gotta say good-bye to them. And I don't know when I'll be visiting Indonesia again. Because my parents will probably fly in to L.A. from Japan (where they will be moving to and teaching in Yokohama) to have a Californian Christmas. I'm taking the day off, either to hang out with my "junior" (soon to be seniors) friends at Dufan (theme park? i guess...), or go with one of the Aksara guy's brothers. He wants to take me to a place where al

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Jun 29, 2005

the start of a new day (cont'd)

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okkayy...... i didn't continue yesterday..... i got in at 10:30ish today. same as always. i'm soo tired. -_- Aisha....... :fella: i work at Aksara bookstore in Kemang. And basically, I browse through the books and pick ones that the store manager would like to feature online on their website. Then I go through the tedious task of writing down the title, author, publisher, number of pages and price of each book. Then I go online to Amazon.com or BarnesandNoble.com and find reviews to borrow (while citing them). I also save pictures of the book covers. :O_o: After all this, I go to the Aksara website and upload each book as well as their boo